it's all unpredictable.
knowing of everything
knowing that what was going on.
i never took my step out.
i do things unwillingly trying to run away from the facts which i long knew that if i pursue iit
it would definitely be mine.
however, i can't bring myslef to it as i cant do it.
i hab no courage to say what i really thinking and what ii really want.
trying to make ownslef happy
yet deep inside is so empty.
onli one thing.
there's alot of things i did that i make myself in a mess
i knew it!
but, i don want to get hurt anymore.
i do thigns that i think it would be happy to keep my ownself happy.
running away?
i tried hard enough
yet now i knew that it's the fact.
but things that i done cant be amend as it would hurts not only mi but others.
i got alot of things to say uet ii cant sau it out.
i want to forget iit. but it seems that it can't.
i want to go for it again, but im afraid.
im thinking th same way too.
but deep inside i really hope to be.
mayb next time?
i don't know.
but deep inside
iknew it, but i can't say it out.